Hmmm, where to begin...

Well, I am now separated from my husband. He is a good man, and father. But I just don't have the feelings for him that I used to . I feel bad at times for putting him through all of this. And I get a lot of advice telling me that I'm going through a phase... I will get over it... I just don't think so. I normally don't post this personal of issues on here. But I feel the need to get it out. The friends I have on here are the best online friends I've made... better friends to me than the ones I have right here. I know that if those friends were here, or around me, would be there for me. I know he is going through a lot... more than I am. But I'm still going through a lot. I've been on an emotional rollercoaster in the past week. Sometimes I just want to run off... to where I don't know???... a magical fantasy land I dreamed up in my mind, perhaps. I'm a dreamer... the things you read in story books do not happen in real life.

Anyway, I've put all creativity on hold. I just hope that my life has not changed my creativity. To be honest, I can't say that my creativity is on hold completely... I have been very tempted to write some poems lately. I have definitely been drowning myself in music. That is one of my passions... music. I think that life needs a soundtrack. I can just grab my ipod, press play and I'm good for hours. I just totally get lost in the music.

Well, I'm gonna end this post. Not sure when I'll post again. I'm not very good at keeping blog commitments, you should know that. But I will drop by my friends to check in on them and see how they are doing. I hope everyone is doing better than I am...

Take care.
Caprice